Isthi Thraseia.

Have any of you ever been in a situation that seemed rather like a dead end that had only one solution: To quit and restart.

I've kind of come to that end with my studies. While I love training to be a teacher and the English language, I have, ever since I went to London and worked in a church, been wanting to quit English and start training for ordination. As it is, that's a rather unusual decision for a mid-twenty chick who rather attends rock shows than church services.

Still, ever since I came back in March 2008, I have thought about changing my course, although I'm 8 semesters into my Bachelor's degree and have only two more to finish. The thought never went away and with the new semester starting up soon, I've felt less and less motivated to look into my English studies and rather inclined to do Religious studies.

Everything about church, charity work and working with the congregation intrigues me so much and I really want to explore that road.

The negative aspect about it? I have to restart. I#ll be a fresher, pretty much, and by the end of my studies I will be 30 - which surely isn't old but not really young either. Still. I want to do that.

The past few days must have been the most horrible of my life. In fact, the entire last week has been pretty horrible: 

The boy has decided to leave and this whole exam thing has been asking a lot of off me. Also, my mother is undergoing major surgery over the next weekend and preparations for that are as much scary as exhausting... And then I've had to mull over my decision and I cried about it a lot and I cursed and I weighed the options...

I cannot finish studies that my heart just isn't in anymore. Over the last two days a lot of things have been hinting at it being the right decision though. I wasn't looking for signs but I'm glad I spotted them along the way.

Have you ever had to make such life-altering decisions? I'd love to hear what obstacles you had to overcome and whether or not it was for the better or worse.

Love, xA.